Fuck you for not flirting!

Know what I did tonight?

Scored a buch of shit. Did/ am doing it.

And confessed to the few people I talk to.

In other words, I busted myself BIG time.

Maybe I'll regret this tomorrow. But whatever, I did it.

I know terror. And I admitted it.

You all knew first. You are still the people I come to first.

But I finally confessed to the others. My best friend, Megan, my sister, Missy, My rock, Jeff, my know-almost-all, Eryn, and my recovery gal, Jennie. I told. I told. Not as much as I've told YOU, but enough to say too much.

YOU are the peope who still know more- Mia, Lala, Rendall, Pat, IMos, Hypno, Chuckster, and anyone else who is brave enough to admit to being a listener. Glenn? Kat? If you've been out there, and paying attention, then DO know that I tell you more than I tell anyone. You'll NEVER know what that has meant to me.

It's like, I hate Rendall, I think he's a deceptive jerk, but he actually reads what I write. I think he's a prince for that. I worship him for that.

None of you will ever understand the debt I owe you for listening to me. I don't respond to YOUR blogs or your vanity tribes. Know why? Cuz I don't care. I am thinking only of me. And for those of you who have thought of me...I love you. If you ever come to doubt whether you have done enough good on this Earth, well, stop doubting. What you have done for me is indescribable.

I somtimes wonder if you realize this. DO you?